Yes I’m scared, yes I’m jealous. I’m scared that you think she’s pretty, I’m scared that you find her more interesting, I’m scared that you think she’s so much better than me, I’m scared that you’re gonna leave me soon. And yes I’m jealous that she gets to see you, I’m jealous that you talked to her, I’m jealous that you had fun with her. I’m scared.. I’m jealous. But that’s only because you mean a lot to me.
7574.) I can't take this anymore. No longer. Not a second, not an hour, not a day. I love you, but not this "you." Half of the time I want to tell you, but it's not you I am talking to anymore. It is someone else, someone I don't love, and I want to tell this you goodbye. But I am too big of a coward to say it. I am too in love with the memories. I think I want something to hurt me, more than you are hurting me. So maybe, just maybe, you will realize what you have, the life you have with me. What am I supposed to be? The damn Time Traveler's wife? I can't just stand here and wait for you to come back again. I have been standing too long. Sometimes you are here, but most of the time you are gone. This time, if you leave, why don't you just leave for good? Never mind. Don't. I don't want you gone forever. I want forever with you. But not this you. I hate this you, I really do. And you are the only person I love in the world. Why won't you re-inhabit your body? I don't know who you are, but thanks for listening to my confession. I needed you more than you know.
Relationships do not get easier. Every day is a struggle. Every day is a battle. It doesn`t get easier with time. In fact, it gets harder. The secret is finding someone who`s willing to be weak and strong with you at the same time. The secret is finding someone who`s willing to work with you and who will push you, challenge you, make it harder for you to leave. The beauty is in the struggle.
This is for the "I'm fine," girls. The girls whose hearts are actually breaking. The girls who smile and nod. The girls who are madly in love with a boy. The girls who blink back their tears. The girls who secretly cry themselves to sleep. The girls who listen to sad music alone. The girls who stare longingly at couples in malls. Because despite what we tell everyone else, we are not fine. We are not fine at all.
You broke her heart. Do you know how many times she told herself that she needs to be stronger? She's been putting smile on her face though tears keeps on falling. She keeps on telling herself that she's fine though deep within, she knows she's not. If you only knew how she wanted to be with you all this time. If you only knew how hard it is for her to get over your memories. If you only knew how many times she'd cried. If you only knew how she stalk your profile just to check if you found somebody new. It breaks her heart a little bit more each day. Do you know that she always listen to music that could hopefully heal her heart and to make her stronger? She pretends to be fine when she's not. Do you have any idea how you made her feel all this pain and hurt? Each and every day of her life carrying these feelings makes her feel sad. If you only knew what she'd been through... I hope you know what you're doing to her all this time.